So. I finally have access to an internet source.I've been without a computer for about a month, and its the longest I've ever gone with my sanity still intact. I still don't even have internet, I'm just stealing my sisters laptop. I have a project and such to do, which sucks because its my break and I should be doing nothing.

Just recently I went through an unhappy phase. Like most of them it came and went, but I still have a little stuck in my mind.I'm stuck in one place, both literally and that other word that means not literally.I have an insane lack of freedom that has put an intense brick wall up in my life. Before it didn't use to bother me so much, just something of habit.But I soon found out that life moved on without me. I've lost opportunities with guys I would've liked to get involved with, and I have no real idea what's going on with my friends. I've lost them. They tell me what they did with their day and how school's going, but I don't really know what's happening.They don't tell me anything anymore.I feel like a stranger to them, and its not my fault at all.I wish I was a little more grateful of my time with them while I had it, but now that things are different I feel it wouldn't change much.No one talks to me, they're either too busy or too hateful.I've tried sorting out grudges but it turns out most people I called friends really weren't friends at all.

On another note.I have to work Friday to Sunday.Not that I'm happy to be working on the busiest store day of the year, its gonna be like an 18 hour shift.But I need something to do.Plus, can you imagine the pay?

Then its my writing.I've been cleaning out my room the past couple of days and I found so many incomplete stories I would like to continue, so its time to work on that.

School still sucks.I'm being overworked and underappreciated.I hate being with people my own age.Not to sound overly egotistical, but I'm way ahead of them on a maturity level, and they all make me sick.

I've got a couple new songs in my head.Maybe once I'm done looking up pointless renaissance art I'll update my playlist.

Until I can come back to my internet, its peace out.